I know your tired, me too.
I know it’s hard to find the motivation to keep on climbing when every time you do you get knocked back down.
But maybe the first time you just didn’t have the right tools and skills to make it to the top.
You will get knocked back down again and again and again. But each time you do you will know where you went wrong and so even though you still don’t know what you’ve got to do to get over this mountain.. by trial and error you will eliminate what not to do.
And maybe you’ll meet some people on the way up that will teach you a few tricks, survival skills.. that might help to make it a little easier, a little less painful.
I know it’s hard, but just think of that view when you make it to the top.